Achievements...as at October 2008

It’s 24th October, no kidding. In less than 10weeks, we will be in the year 2009. My achievements for the year are:
(1) Development and roll-out of customer survey online to all ministries and government agency
(2) Roll-out of Incident Management Processes for CSU
(3) Team members for the implementation of GL System
(4) Given 7 Training for new System for Clients
(5) Attended CMMI Training
(6) Be part of CMMI implementation team
(7) Team lead for PAT
(8) Successfully implement and change SD to CSU with all the CSU Tree structure and all the define JDs for each agent
Well that is more into my working life achievements. When it comes to my personal life…I don’t know. :p
Ermm …could I say buying the new Camry 2.0 (with the Bluetooth) an achievement? HeHe.. :p my social life sux…

Feel bored at the moment, as usual it is lunch break and here I am, the anti-social gurl who only stay in the office. HaHa…

Zaimmmmm…………………Ka Wina kan ikut ke England  Boring sini ne!..

C'est La Vie - Zest of Life

Actually at the moment, I’m seeing someone. He’s cute, not handsome :P but religious enough to guide me and my family.

I don’t know why I like him, when I can choose another two guy that are more qualified to the criteria that I’ve been looking for. One thing tho’, he is being honest with everything (at the moment, that is what I could say). In addition, I don’t know why, apart from Mr.K(I know I owe the story about Mr.K), (back to my story)he is the other guy who I can share everything with, my past, my dream, my future and etc. The fact that he could accept me as me, without questioning my past adds up his value to me.

Let’s call this new guy Mr.G.D. He’s chubby=huggable … (like owez, that my taste ryt? Haha.. I think that’s why I can’t choose the other two guy, coz they are not. HeHe). I am happy when I am with him and so do him. We miss each other very much. When come to think about it, I think I’m crazy, or, WE ARE CRAZY. Tho’ in quite a short period, we knew each other quite well, we know each others attitude, traits, what we love and what we hate. HaHa… But again, it took me a year of relation, to get to know this, when I was with Mr.K, but him…? Am I actually on the right track? Or did I just lose my mind?

Sometime the question occurs in his mind, why do I choose him? Well, if I got the answer, I wouldn’t ask that to myself jua, bleh? I guess, like wise man said, love need no reason, no excuse, no flowery words. It’s just come. You just know it, when it is there. It’s like da happiness, sometime you don’t know what makes you feel happy, but you know in your heart that you are happy, ryt? Hehe……..

My next question will be, should I continue with the relation? Or just ignore it, coz it is too good to be true? And the fact, I know….i’m the type of person, who are not confident with my own heart and easily get bored. HaHa… Aduhss…

For my beloved bro

Last two days, I’ve chatted with my bro in msn. He is currently in UK, furthering his study. The first thing that he said to me is, “call me..” HaHa… So I did call him and we talk for few minutes (mahal kaliah..buleh!) HaHa..

After we finished up with our phone conversation, he msn me again. He said, “rupanya ka wina ada blog..baru tah ku tau”…

Yes I do lah..lai… its quite awhile I didn’t maintain it, but for the past few weeks, active lagi balik memblog. Maybe because of the pressure, or the need to say something, and there is no one to reach or talk to personally. Or to be right, no one we dare to talk to, so…ka wina buat arah blog saja. People can read it, or don’t…as long as I can write what’s in my heart.  Lets just call it our shout out page. That’s what I do.

Does that answer your question my kungfu panda? :P

Be back with more letters ;)

Hy Nadhirah JuVoz

I’m back! HaHa. But still with not much of a story 
But before that let me say something,

Good luck and selamat maju jaya to my cuzzy, Nadhirah. The girl who owez make all the noise for your day.  we miss you here

Information Security Management System

People in the company keep asking me, what is this all about? Well, isn’t it self-explanatory by the topic itself?

Simple English: To have a system to manage the security of your information.
Why this might be applicable to our company? Our Company is an IT Consultant – that provide solution and support to its client. These clients will have their information within the system of which they wanted us to develop. So it is our responsibility to ensure their information, financially or personally from being access by unauthorized party or agency, whether for personal use, business advantage or profit.

ISMS itself is a compliance and this compliance then can be measured by the standard IS027001. Prior to the security audit and stuff, the company should implement the ISMS in the organization and complied with it.

When talking about Security, what comes in peoples’ mind will be the technical part, password, account number and all those which seems to have high impact should we lose it. People tend to ignore the other part of security which lies beneath. As a matter of fact, security is more than just a bunch of key password and all sorts. It is securing our information assets from unauthorized access. There are 3 elements that factored and consider in ISMS implementation, that are: Confidentiality, Integrity and Availability.

Confidentiality itself is self-explanatory. Of course everyone would expect that all their personal data and financial data should be kept secured. But what is integrity and availability have to do with security?

As a matter of fact, security will apply in the sense that, the company should ensure that the system will be available as promise to clients and its integrity should be maintained and not jeopardize. Just take for example, if the system in the stock market went down. What will happen?? Chaos!! Its not because of the confidentiality of the stock market, but because of the importance of its availability to the market and public. Businesses might lose billions of dollars if the system is down. What do you think?

Well, that is just brief explanation of ISMS..will cover the topic when I have mood.

Ooo..btw Dirah, you might ask, where am I? in da office… I’m trying to finish my presentation slide for the knowledge sharing to Customer Service Unit regarding the new implemented and roll-out General Ledger System, and I’m dymn bored!!! Sick!! Keep sneezing and coughing and it turn off my mood to even think about the presentation. So I take the break, to type this topic. :P And in case you read this blog before 5pm, tell babu that I’ll be a bit late today ;) say 8pm? HaHa…

Hanya Kau Yang Mampu (Aizat)

I’ve heard of this song before, but don’t really listen to its lyrics. Not until one day a guy told me to listen to it and find something behind the song

.…….Ku cuba redakan relung hati, Bayangamu yg berlalu pergi, Terlukis di dalam kenangan, Bebas bermain di hatiku

.…….Cerita tentang masa lalu, Cerita tentang kau dan aku, Kini tinggal hanya kenangan, Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

.…….Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi, Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati, Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir, Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

.……Aku cinta oooohhhhhh…. Aku cinta ooooooo….. Aku cinta oooohhhhhh…. Aku cinta ooooooo…..

The song is kinda long, but its kinda repeating the same lyric, so I just the few lines of the song! Well, to comment on this song? Its not that bad, it do catch my attention the 1st time I listen to the music but its not “seducing” enough to make me search for the song 
Anyway, so Siapa yang mampu taklukkan hatimu, Oreo? :p HaHa…. Quitter!!

For Nadhirah

Well, I know my last blog was on the topic why am I still single? And I’m suppose to actually continue on the story about Mr.K. Well, lets hold that story first.

Today, I just wanna talk crap.. Yeah Crap!  Just kidding, not really crap lah..But just my activity for the past few days, which I can’t remember :p Let me recall lah.

Well, on the 7th, my bro went off to further his study. Which I have mentioned already. Hehe..Actually I’m trying to find moments in which my cuzzin name Nadhirah is involve. Coz she want me to include her in ;) HaHa.. Hy Nadhirah. I know you will read this.

Maybe instead of finding that moment, I should just tell few things about this cousin of mine. So here it goes, Nadhirah….

At home we call her Dirah. She is an eighteen year’s old beautiful girl with Arabians look. HeHe.. That is what we could say. When we go out together, people will thought that we are siblings coz they think that the resemblance is there. I am not sure if that is true, I mean..Dirah is beautiful girl and I’m just the chubby and fierce gurl people will ever know. HaHa.. Isn’t it Dirah?

Well, what connect me closer to her compare to my other cousin is that, we are both “gila-gilahan otherwise known as crazy” , we are “kasar” rough mcm boys and we are loud. :p and another one..i like to squeeze her. Haha…Jan marah Dirah sayang. She’s not the type who like to have make up on like other teenagers, I believed if she do and take good care of herself more, she will be even beautiful, sweet and lovely.

Dirah also always like to eat what I eat. HaHa..Ndaku tau mengapa kah ya anak ne. :p Everytime I cook something, she would say, “ Aiii..nyaman tu… Mun Ka Wina masak confirm nyaman “. Sucker~~~ Haha. Got this one day, she wanted to eat rice porridge and so do I. So I make porridge for ourselves. Before that she said, “Lama bah masak bubur ne.” …Kwang kwang..who said so? It wont take more than 15 mins lai. And thus, she watched me. After that day, everytime we are craving for “bubur”, she will cook it for us. Haha… And confirm always nyaman. Liat sapa gurunya kaliah.. Haha.. Bah Dirah, kaka craving for bubur ne..baik buatkan kng malam ;) Hehe.. k lah..my lunch break is over. Be back with other stories

Why are you still single?

Why you are still single?

People always asked this question to their single friend. They might even ask this question to themselves, if he/she is single. So why are you single? Usually, I’ve been asked this question over and over, and the answer to that is because “I am fat, fat is equal to bida, so no want interested me, so just face the single life”. And as usual, the response was predictable. I will usually get the, “Ndakan pasal fat, there is a lot of fat people in Brunei, in the world and yet they got bf, lots are married, and now living happily with their husband.” And with that response they gave me, I will just smile and say, “banar plang”.

Then, this is the part where they gonna accused me. “You ne pemilih kali wah”. HaHa. =) Now this is where the arguments start. I might agree to the extent that I am choosy, but not terms of look la, more into life security. I mean if I want, I can easily select a guy from the few that proposed, to be my boyfriend. But am I desperate enough to have a bf? No. I mean, I don’t want to have one just because my friend or cuzzin have a partner.

I always tell my single friends, don’t be too choosy but you have to choose. This means that you need list out all the criteria that you want in a guy/girl, but later prioritized it. These criteria should be prioritized by: Criteria Need to Have, Criteria Nice to Have.

Let’s assume below are the usual criteria that we search in a partner:
Stable income, Good looking, Religious, Educated, Funny, Honest and Mature

There you got the list. So from the list, which is the most important to you? Good looking? Or Educated? Why you need to consider this because you can’t get all the criteria in a single person. No one is perfect. Even if there is any, only 0.01% exists. Taking all the criteria when you make selection means you are choosy, as you narrow down and limits your option. So, you won’t get even a person to be a partner. HaHa. This is what I call choosy. As for me, I’m not a choosy person, I’m just choosing the best for me.

In simple words, I don’t want all those criteria in a person. To me, if I were to listed out priorities in terms of criteria of my partner, below are the arrangement:

(1) Honesty – I mean, hellew, honesty is important. What for you get a good looking guy or rich one but they cheated one you?
(2) Stable income – no need to be rich
(3) Mature - 
(4) Educated/Religious – teach you life and guiding you
(5) Funny – to cheer you up
(6) Good looking – nice to have, not a must, yang penting sedap mata memandang.

There you go, I’m not choosy but choosing for da best dat I could have. So why am I still single? Coz its not easy to find a person with stable income/mature  abis2..if I ever encounter, married person, which I dun think I can have. Haha.. I say so? I mean you will say byk jua orang muda2 with stable income. Yeah its true, but…most of them is not mature enough in terms of thinking, they dun take life seriously yet, and this turn off my mood. Occasionally I do encounter few who are at my age (or late 20’s), who are mature, but again…milik orang :P so, here I am, still single. Does that answer everyone’s question? You might again ask why don’t I try be with someone with stable income but young at mind (not mature).

To tell you the truth, I ever try to accept this kinda person. In fact, I ever knew 2 guys, both were at their late 20’s. Know them in 2 different occasion and time frame. They have stable income, and are good looking. But I doubt their honesty. Hehe (well I know that’s my problem, being in doubt). There were also not mature enough for me. I try to accept this. Try to have serious relationship with any of this two guy, but *sigh*, at the end of the day, my heart can accept the fact that I need someone who are mature enough to actually lead my way, instead of me leading their way. They don’t even think about their own future, as long as they get paid, that’s it. Aduhs! And that is not me. Hehe..Turn off tarus.



Before them, I’ve known a guy and we become couple. Lets call him Mr. A. This guy suits me. He has stable income and are mature. But at later stage of the relation, I’ve realized that he is married. You might ask how come I didn’t know all this while?

1st of all, I did ask him. His only answer is, “If I tell you, you wouldn’t want to be with me anymore”. So tired of asking, I just accept him. Another thing why I didn’t suspect that he is married because he called me up, day and night, messaging me, not scared going out in public with me. Siapa jua sangka ia have wife ryt? But kuasa Allah, my mums’ friend saw us time jalan2 and told my mum that he is a married man. Thus, I break up with him. To tell you the truth, I do like him.  He’s mature and understand me better, not to mention he loves me so much. But then, his not honest. Kwang kwang. My mistake. But the funny part is, his wife is actually ok with our relation, he said. Mula-mula I don’t believe him. But when I speak to his wife, we even go out together and become like sisters. Haha. He even proposed me for her husband. I salute her. But because of that jua, I can’t continue. His wife is too nice and should not be hurt.  Thank Mie. (That is my 1st love story :P haha.. Sad huh!) . But we are still friend. Haha. Tho’ he still continue to convince me to accept him. Haha. No Way!

My 2nd relations is with a guy which I will call here Mr. K. I will talk about him in my next blog. Now, I’ve finished my lunch break. HeHe. So, got to work again ;) . Until then….

ONSITE SUPPORT for ‘Da Project’

I was involved in the General Ledger System Project since July 2008. It was a 3mths project, in which it means that we need to develop a GL System, tested, confirm the acceptance, give training to user on the system and go-live by end of Sept, 2008. The team has only 5members (including Project Manager). Surprise, surprise… Congrats to us, we manage to roll out this Project on time, 24th Sept 2008, its not even 3mths yet.

The training for the system was conducted from 8th Sept to 16th Sept and was conducted by myself. There were 7courses and the feedback was satisfying. Then, from 16th – 23rd, we just need to do all the preparation for the go-live on the 24th. All the users ID, password, permission lists, functions and etc created, tested and confirmed to function well.

Before the system is roll-out, change impact briefing has been made as this is to ensure that all the staff in the “organization” aware about the new system. Those who are impacted in their work are also given a guide during this briefing. This is because, due to the new system, some of the current task might be redundant. Thus, it is the responsibility for our side, to analyze and restructure the task and business process according to the “organsations’ requirement”. After approval from “organizations’” management, this new task, business process and etc are confirmed. This information needs to be communicated to all the impacted employees. This roll-out briefing was done right after the completion of the training.

Once the GL system go-live on the 24th Sept, operation support were given to the “organization”. The onsite support was available from period 24th Sept to 15th Oct. The support given is for user who needs the assistance to use the system, should there be any. The project closing will be in October, hopefully

A guy of poet :)

Whom I met last nite? Just someone. I salute this guy. He is so poetic and analytical. I rarely meet someone like him.  HaHa.. He explained about his interest in poetic kinda stuff, songs lyric, theatre and poem. Cool! U go boy!  I support you. And yeah I agree, in Brunei, its not that we do not have talented writers or composer, but the fact is, each of us might have thought about this, and knock knock, we do have talented writers, you yourself might even have write sumthing once or twice in your life and realizing there is no place for you to publish this. To publish yourself? You need to think about all the capital, marketing, target market, publishing and the list go on. To let publisher to publish? Look around you, how many organization publish your work and you get the royalty? Well, I guess the best you can go is DBP and, you won’t have any royalty, you will only get a one time payment, which is if you wanna know, is really really really tiny meeny bucks. The next place is Pelita Brunei and its not very encouraging :P Oops! Why did I say that? Because they limit what you write. I mean..hellew the ideas come and flowing without we knowing it, so??? How can you limit writers for writing stuff, no love, no war?? Ermm!! Wake up, that’s life. We write based on what we see, hear, experience, felt. =) some might be direct, some might not(metaphor), but the fact, it is unlimited and should not be control. Well, not to say, totally no control at all, but what I’m trying to say is, yes you control all the badword and stuff or issue that might be sensitive to certain part of the country but hellew, love story? Poems?war that we hear, see? The tears that we felt…. I guess that is sumthing that someone should write down.  But I can say that through out the years, it does improve, but limitation is there. So…open up PB 

Our next discussion is about book writing, regardless academically, fiction, non-fiction. I meant look around the bookshop, tips about this and that (tips how to be a successful owner manager), guide to exams and stuff, and look who is the writer and the publisher? 99.9% its overseas writer. Where is our book? We have our own tips? Our own values? Our own Bruneian ways of handling whatever thing, and where is the writing on this?? None. Its not because of no one ever think about it, or care to do it, but think about it. If you do it, where will u go for publishing? Publish yourself? Haha.. I ever thought about this when I start writing an academic book, because of this issue, I lose focus, and know my books abandon at its first phase  But I’m gonna continue tho’ :p I’m not good at writing story book but…I have interest in writing academic books of my field ;) Wish me luck.

7th Oct 2008

Its Tuesday and the time for my bro to go back to UK has come. *sigh*
My beloved bro will be taking off to UK today at 7pm Brunei time. Got last minute hiccup, such as no itinerary ticket yet but he got it this morning. Hopefully everything is OK for him, here and after he arrive in London. Three months seems like three weeks to mum and the family, since the time spent is so little with him. He’s the youngest in the family, thus, everyone gonna missed him so much. Tho’ he might not know how much we love him, but we hope he owez bring our love there.

I know he was a bit reluctant to leave Brunei, but hey, you have to continue your studies sayang. Hehe.. Yatah manusia. Before getting the chances, praying hard and doing all the best to get it. Now after, you get all the chances you have, reluctant cia. I know he misses Brunei so much.  Well, Brunei gonna miss u too my dear

Last night, as what I have wrote in my previous blog, we have an unplanned raya openhouse. Haha. It was started when my bro pay a visit to our auntie house, and they were asking when are we gonna have our openhouse (which in fact we didn’t plan any for this years’ raya). Anyway, I guess for the sake of my aunties, plus, my bros’ friend (as he is leaving today), we decide to have the openhouse . Grrrrrrrreaaaaaaaaaaaat!

Well, I don’t really help much since the preparation has been done earlier yesterday morning, just left with the cooking and stuff and by the time I arrive from work it is almost done. One thing left to do for me tho’, as usual..i’m the cable guy, should I say, cable gurl, the electrician and old the hardware stuff  I really need to be a guy.. :p or otherwise have to get married and get my hubby to do it for me. Hahah..Anyway, back to the story. Well since everything has been ready and it wasn’t in my plan to actually have the open house and in fact I’ve already made a promise to meet a friend of mine that night, so, after helping with a few stuff, preparing all the sound system, serving and all those, I went off.  HaHa.. I know, I know, it does not look good to leave your guest but hellew, promise is promise, ryt? Plus, at the end of the day, I know, everyone is happy with everything. So, no harm made.

You might think, where am I at the moment and how can I blog? HahHa..Well, its actually lunch time and instead of going to lunch(which I usually don’;t), I just take my lunch break and go online. This activity suits me better. ;) and yeah I’m still in the office, in fact just finished my meeting about 1.5hrs ago. At around 2pm, will have to go meet client again and do a quick presentation to a colleague. HaHa.. Pretty busy..that’s why I took my time during the lunch to have all the conversation I required or any heartfelt that I need to share. –end of my explanation-

5th Syawal

Well, as the topic stated, it is the 5th Syawal, which means the 5th day of raya and now I'm back at work.

Most people asked, how was my raya? HaHaHa. Told them it was not so fun. :) And that is the truth.

On Raya eve, I was already feeling not so good and in fact on the 1st day of raya I was sick. I got flu. HaHa...My head felt heavy, as if tonnes of weight were put on it. My neck hurt. The good thing about it was that our family don't usually go raya on the 1st day, so I can have a good rest on that day.

The next day, 2nd day of raya, we went to KB. First, we went to visit our grandpa who has been admitted to hospital since before Ramadhan. Grandpa is 85years old and he has no sickness at all. By the way, that statement didn’t come from me, that was what doctor stated. As per doctor, he is OK, fine and there is not a single sickness for him, it was just that he is so weak, as he didn’t want to eat. Not that we don’t try, we have tried millions of time and he rejected it. Sometime he stared at us, when we kindly forced him to eat. So, we stop first and try again later. And it’s still the same. He didn’t want to eat.

Anyhow, back to the visit that we went on the 2nd Raya. As per what we always do every raya, we kiss his hand and forehead. We joke with him and he still laughed. My brother got to massage him which he really like, hehe. Expert kaliah . Then, mum tried to feed him with porridge and as again, he rejected it. He stared at my mum. All of us then said to grandpa, “Ni, makan ni, nyaman tu…Hmm” Then we make a “hmm” sound, indicating that the food is delicious. He ate a bit, but after the 2nd spoon. He stopped and pushed it away. Well, at least he ate. *sigh* Get well soon Grandpa. We miss you. Before we went home, our grandma and aunties came, we greet them raya and went to Kg. But since there was no one there, we went home to Bandar. Boring ryt? :P

The third day of Raya, my siblings and I planned to actually go to my daddy’s side of the family. But, since we don’t have any raya mood actually ever since the 1st day, we kinda cancel it. We only went to our Grandma house(dad side) to raya and for the function: tahlil. That night, it rain heavily. Arghh..basah kuyup. The function finished at around 9.30pm. We didn’t went straight home. With my cuzzin, we went to their aunties’ Open house(dad side).  It was so cool and cold ..Grrr

On the 4th day of Raya? Hahah..We were just at home. :P Boring? Oh btw, we were at home almost the whole day, but at night I went out for awhile to see someone :P don’t ask sapa..hahaa..  Arrived at home around 10pm.

And today, we gonna have unplanned Open house. Adushh!..Haha… Who’s invited? I myself don’t know. Let see la 

To be con’t

30mins before 1st syawal

Its only 30mins before 1st syawal,wic means d last day we wil bersungkai for d month of ramadhan. This year,ramadhan feels only like a week,da time fly fast,not just fast,real fast. In fact,today is already d 1st october,it seems like only last week we enter the year 2008,bt nw,we are actually near to the end.
When i arive hme dis afternoon,da maid gve me a red envelope. It was a raya card frm sum1 special n it was specialy addres to me. I felt bit sad,cz i fyl guilty to dat person.its nt R fault,its just that..i fyl im nt da right persn for R anymre. Selamat hariraya baby,maaf zhr btin,its nvr byn ur fault.im da bad guy.. Nw its a year that i hvnt meet you. I mis u,mis our tym 2gthr,bt u got them,u dun nyd me.
well,tom is here,i got to go.wil con't later.